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Like I Can

It’s one of too many phrases. ‘No-one will ever love you like I can’. Words uttered by lovers. ‘You’ll never swim as far as I can.’ Two people be it siblings, girl/boyfriend, spouse or spouse-to- be, there’s always the cheekiness and the love behind those words. It’s a challenge. What will you dare to say back? I would reply, ‘Exactly. So that works both ways. No-one will ever love you like I can.’
No-one will ever love you like I can. When I’m with you, nothing else matters. No even if what I write relates to the title I’ve written. Because I’m happy. Why? You’re all I want. Someone who would be by my side through everything. Making good memories, enduring bad ones and surviving the ones that life gives us. Before, the word ‘Us’ wouldn’t have been there. I’m used to facing things alone and crumbling away because no-ones been there. There’s still a barrier. But this time, it isn’t being ashamed to feel from my heart. It’s to not seem weak. ‘No tears. You’re stronger than that. Tears, they’re a sign a weakness. Suck it up.’ Those are the thoughts that run through my head when I’m upset. Until the anger takes over. And then that’s it. Music rules over. You won’t see my tears. I won’t let you. Because you’ll cry with me. You’ll feel what I feel. Do I want that for you? Would I want that for anyone? So no, you’ll never see me cry. Because you’re not the only one battling denial and confusion and general emotion. You have enough to think and deal with yourself. I do this because I love you and no-one will ever love you like I can.
I wrote this at 15 years old.

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